You Will Never Birth at Home They Said
This is a poem about the barriers I faced and the subsequent triumphant birth of my fourth child at 42. It is the story of my 21 year journey from birth trauma to ecstatic birth. It is also a story of quietly not being pulled into endless discussion of risk.
Hospital Birth can also be an amazing, empowering experience - the key being that a woman's informed choices are respected.
You will never birth this baby at home, they said
You are too old, you must lay on a hospital bed
Be poked and prodded, ordered about, abused
I WILL NOT discuss this
I AM having a home birth
I repeated my mantra, Again and again
And then, day one of school holidays
My baby, my body, together they knew
On this day, at this time
It was the perfect moment
In a delicate mix of hormones
My rainbow knew it was time for the dance of his birth
How quickly he came, a storm of excitement
Of pain and pleasure and ecstasy
My body took over, the surges they grew
In the bath, on the floor
Eventually stood in the door
One arm high, one arm low
One final rush, one huge push
Not laid on a cold hospital bed
Stood In the bathroom doorway of my home
The bitter sweet moment of birthing my last born
It happened exactly at noon
In a flood of water and laughter
Of tears of joy, my perfectly perfect, little boy
Entered our world.
Many Thanks to Jo Robertson of Lillian Craze Birth Photography for the wonderful image.
Samantha Gadsden is an experienced Doula based close to Cardiff in South Wales, mother to 4 children and wife to Eddie, more information can be found on her facebook page, Samantha Gadsden Doula and website, Caerphilly Doula.